The silence of the Maggie.

Yes, it's a miracle. I don't know if it's from crying herself to sleep last night, her cold, or a combination of both, but she's lost her voice. It's so sad. And cute. It's this little crackly squeaky voice, it cracks me up. The sad thing is is I think she feels better today, she just sounds worse. I think she just needs her mommy to cuddle up with.

Feeling like CRAP!!!

Yes, I know, crap is a bad word. But sometimes not-bad words just don't describe it. Both the girls have had runny noses all weekend, and I thought they were getting over it. Hah!!! Now not only are they sicker than they were this weekend, I am too! I should have known. I read Mindy's blog and Mike said they were all sick. I must have picked up some computer virus from the blog. So here sit Maggie and I, both with runny noses, and sneezing all over each other. Poor Emma, she was sneezing like crazy and her eyes were so watery, but she would not stay home from school. She kept trying to convince me that it was her allergies. She's so sweet. I guess it's that kind of day when you stay in your jammies, drink hot cocoa, and watch Dora until you want to blow your brains out. Yep, should be fun. At least the landscapers are here to take care of all the old leaves flying around everywhere. It's about time. I wonder if they would take care of the leaf infiltration that has taken over my garage, since they should have been here a week ago. Probably not. Oh well. What do you expect for $150 a month? I personally expect better service than that, but what can I do? I complain but nothing changes. I think I'm rambling so I'm going to go now. Maybe I'll go take a nap and try to feel better. Wish me luck!

WARNING! TWO WEEKS FROM TODAY. BE PREPARED.

I am totally hooked on Grey's Anatomy.

I can't get enough of it. I wish it would be like 2 hours long, so I could just watch, and watch, and watch. It almost makes me want to go to medical school. Almost. Okay, not really, but it does make it seem funner than it probably is. I used to think that way about "Friends", but toward the end, I was just kind of "ah, no." Then it was "E.R." Same thing now, it's just not like it used to be with George Clooney and Anthony Whats-His-Face. Although I am loving Nelah, and Morris totally cracks me up. I do like the new nurse, Eve, who was the hot chick from "Third Rock", but she's gotten older, and fatter. Not that I'm one to talk, but I'm not an actress, so no one can say that about me in a public forum. I guess.

So my newest addiction is "Grey's Anatomy" which like I said before is just so cool. Plus, I wish I looked that cute in scrubs. I just look like a boxy old school marm (Is that even a word?) I just love Sandra Oh, who ever since sideways has me hooked on her quirkiness. An Patrick Dempsey, although not my instant favorite, has definitely grown on me. It took me a couple of episodes to get past the geek-mower in "Can't buy me love", but he's grown up a lot, and despite his small face, he plays the part perfectly. Izzy is another of my favorites, but I may be biased. I got a website in my email about famous Mormons, and low and behold, there she was. I don't know how true it is, but I'd like to believe it. She's darling. Anyway, each week I want to see more, and now I'm even getting past the drama of McDreamy and Meredith, and wanting to more of Burke and Christina, George (who is soooo cute, even though he has a bubble butt and sweats incessently), and of course Izzy. I guess that's a sign of a good show, when people's attention starts drifting from the intial attraction to the blossoming ones.

So that is my two cents worth. I certainly don't see myself as a critic by any stretch of the imagination, but I do like to think I know what works. Plus, anyone you talk to who has seen the show will tell you they are just as hooked as I.

BEWARE! IT'S COMING IN A FEW WEEKS. CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED!

One second he's fine, the next, not so much.

So here I am, taking care of one of my favorite patients. He comes in for Chemo a lot, so we all know him. Well, here he sits, talking and joking, and suddenly, out of nowhere, he's turning blue and gasping for breath. I'm the only one around, and I'm so not feeling qualified at this moment, so what do I do? First, I poop my pants, then I scream. Yes, I did. I full on screamed. I know, not the most professional thing to do, but boy was I taken off guard. This was the first time I'd actually had one of my patients do that so quickly. It seems like the ones you think are going to be the ones to do it never are, and here is Mr. "Hi, I'm just here to get my Chemo and get my fever down, no big deal, and you all love me because I'm so funny and cute" that takes a tumble toward the light. Weird. Well, needless to say, I got a new pair of scrubs out of it (see incident prior to the screaming), and he did finally come around. Good thing I only had to work a few hours last night, I don't think I would have lasted after that. So now I've realized I'm grossly unqualified and inexperienced, despite my schooling. I guess there are things that only experience can teach. Darn that. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my job, but sometimes it makes you realize that life is so short. One second you're here and talking, and the next you're following the dark tunnel to the bright light. **** "It's so beautiful,....I can't help it". So that was my day. Or night. Whatever.


**** Gnat flying into the bug zapper in "A Bug's Life"

Looking forward to TURKEY!

And for those of you that know me well, will understand why. I love Thanksgiving. It's my favorite holiday. I love the food, the family, and a day set aside to think of things we are grateful for. But Thanksgiving must come early for me this year. I will not be able to participate in the festivities on the actual holiday, so I'm talking my mom into cooking turkey dinner a week early just for me. It's a lot to ask, I know, but I need to experience the turkey-ness just one more time. After that, no more for my whole life! Just a few bites will have to suffice. But it will be worth it. I know it will. Hopefully she'll oblige. Hopefully.