I'm here. I promise. I haven't dropped off the face of the earth, although sometimes it feels like I have. I have sort of become like a pioneer these days. Except I have a car. And I don't wear bonnets and crappy dresses. But, since I don't have TV hooked up yet, or internet installed yet, and I'm building fires each morning to keep me warm, I totally feel like a really modern pioneer.
The truth is, I'm working my ass off. Literally. I've lost 14 pounds since the divorce began. Now there's a good diet, though I don't really recommend it. I work at the salon in the mornings, and then I'm doing training in the evenings until 11:30 ish. 5 days a week, people. That works out to be about 60 hours a week. That is crazy. Take that, and add on the flu, and boy howdy, I'm pretty much a mess.
Thankfully I have this super short lesbian haircut to cut down on my "getting ready" time, which has really come in handy.
As for life these days, each day is different. Fly by the seat of my pants. I miss the kids in my home every day, but we're all adjusting okay I think. I miss the life I had before, but I'm enjoying the empowerment that comes from doing things myself, albeit hard and tear-filled most of the time. I miss my mom daily, more now than ever I think, but I'm so grateful for my siblings and my dad and Noma. They are all truly a blessing in my life. I know they have a hard time with the situation, but they take it all with a smile and a knowledge that I've always been a free spirit, and this is no different. They just support me,l and that's what I need.
I hope you're all doing well, and I promise I will keep up better on the blog. At least on my good days.