Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I Didn't Really Think There Would Be A Downside

Okay, I have to brag for a moment. But first, a back story.

For those of you that know me well, you know I hate to look at myself. Ever. Like ever. Like, even to put on makeup. I went with Meg to pick up her wedding gown, and that room full of floor to ceiling mirrors was my own personal Hell. It seems like as soon as I see my reflection, I immediately focus on the flaws. You know, the jiggly belly, the double chin, the acne problem, and I could go on and on. I'm just not a babe. It's fine, I'm over it.

So nearly 4 years ago I had lap band surgery. I was a fat girl, and needed help. So I had the surgery. It wasn't cheap, but I knew it would be worth it.

Not long after the surgery, I found out I was pregnant with Gretta. So I had all the restriction from the band taken out, and I had normal eating habits until I had her. Then slowly I started getting more restriction added.

It has taken a while, but I've finally found my happy place. I can still eat a small amount of food comfortably, but I can't overeat or I puke. It's not pretty, but it works.

And since April, I have lost... Dun dun dun....

30 pounds!

I wish I had done this sooner, because I really can feel the old me emerging. It's a nice feeling.

But now for the downside.

My clothes look horrible on me. My pants sag everywhere, my G's get all tangled up around me during the night, the three bras I bought during the summer are too big, and now I have to start spending money on clothes to fix all that. This is the first time in my life that I have had to spend money to buy smaller clothes, and not the size up from my last size.

What a great feeling.

And now, I can look myself in the eye. You may even notice my profile picture is an actual picture of myself, not the Pancreatic Cancer Awareness ribbon. That's a huge step. I can even iChat with the family, and not want to cry.

So there. If you think you need help, get the lap band. It works. I'll even give you my docs name, cause he's awesome. He also does emergency appendectomies ( just as my dad) and hernia repairs (again, just ask my dad). He also has a killer house in over in old Riverton, and he is just cool.


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20 comments:

Darci & Devin Buhl said...

Go Keli! Thats really exciting. I honestly think you are super cute though plus or minus the 30 pounds. Your picture on the articles that you write-love it. Have fun shopping!

Lacey Fay Cottrell said...

Seriously that is awesome Keli!! I really don't know what your are talking about when you talk about looking at your face though...not to be corny but you have a beautiful face with great features the profile pic has a good glow to it all! Love ya tons lady!

Kalli Ko said...

That is fantastic, losing weight is the biggest accomplishment.

I bet you look awesome!

DAY said...

What an empowering feeling to be in control and overcome such a battle--i'm so so happy for you!

LuVera said...

Congrats to one terrific lady!

Steve and Tina said...

you're like the amazing melting woman! Kudos to you sista - the best part is that you feel great.

Nurse Heidi said...

30 pounds!!! That's fantastic! Of all the weight loss surgeries, that's the one that I think is by far the best. Fewest side effects and most reasonable. Keep up the good work, woman! I did notice the appearance of an actual picture of you and I smiled :).

grannybabs said...

I think you are a very pretty young woman - but shedding any number of pounds can always add a nice touch!! (I'd like to shed 30 lbs. myself!! Maybe even three would make me happy!0

Kelli said...

When I saw the new profile pic I told Troy you looked skinny. I also think you look more like your mom. Good job, I need to lose 30 pounds but it just never happens!

Kelley Rae said...

Way to go hot mama! If only you were a bad dresser so we could get you on What Not to Wear - then you can have fun shopping with someone else's money!

nikkipicky said...

You totally Rock!! Good for you. I want to lose 30 pounds +. I have lost 15 in 7 weeks. 2lbs a week, I'll take it.

Your profile pic does look good..and Kelli is right it looks a lot like your mom. ;)

Stacy O said...

Fantastic job Keli! You look beautiful and I know you feel great.

amy k said...

Way to go! Also, way to be proud. I noticed on your facebook pic that you had lost weight. Keep up the good work.

The Patterson's said...

Way to go Keli!!! That's amazing! I don't know what you're talking about with your looks. I guess no one sees themselves very clearly. I've always thought you were beautiful. I don't give false compliments. Keep it up girl and if you need a shopping partner I'm all yours. All my clothes have either been shrunken by my wonderful hubby or the kids have stained them. ha ha. The life of a mommy.

Meg & Josh said...

YAY!! I am so proud of you! You are beautiful, with or without 30 pounds....

Laura said...

Keli that is awesome, good job! Bet you feel so great! And you have always been so pretty!!!!

Jill Johnson said...

I saw the new profile pic too! I was going to comment on that. Good job! I am so proud, but you forgot the picture of your kickin waist line!

Larissa said...

I think you're a babe! Yay for losing weight!!! That's always fun and buying new clothes is super fun too.

Keli said...

Aww, you gals are so dang nice. I wasn't compliment fishing, but geez, do I feel complimented! I fully expect to have you all along when I finally give in and go shopping. Sound like a plan? Good then.

Jessica said...

Wow! good for you! My aunt had that surgery and it changed her life. I am a believer. Good job on the weight loss, oh, and the clothes thing... In a couple of months I'll come with you! I just need to pop out a baby first, and then I will be needing a wardrobe change myself.