I'm not an "in charge" kind of person. I like being told what to do. I don't deal well with authority figures, and I second guess myself a lot when it comes to reporting to people above me.
Surprising, I know.
I think it stems from my inability to be serious about anything. Ever. Authority figures seem to take my sarcastic tone in a bad way. Why on earth would they do that?
I was put in charge of a decision making process that no one else seemed to want to take charge of. Should I be flattered by that? No, I'm not. So I took charge. I did the best I could. At least with what information I had been, or hadn't been given, as the case may be.
I have since found out that my decision wasn't the best one, or at least not the way others had imagined it should be. Although even though they had all the information, they didn't or wouldn't take it upon themselves to make the decision.
Does this make any sense at all? Clear as mud, right? Right-O then.
I wish I could just come right out and say what I mean, but for once I'm not an open book. I just get so frustrated.
People, if you want help from others, be specific! Don't assume they can read your mind. It is just too frustrating for all parties involved.
End of issues. For now.